缘分....

原来缘分要来的时候真的挡不住...
可是, "缘" 也有有缘无份....
那个份~刚刚走了....

哎,今天听到一个朋友告诉我..
之前又找过我..可是他找的那个并不是我本人...
真地给他咋到!!!
他表白...可是我错过了那一幕!! 哈哈...
听听也爽嘛....呵呵..

可是奇怪阿...
为什么对象会是我啊?
他身边那么多人~又美又好!! 嘻嘻.....
可是也蛮开心的他有这份心意!!! 哈哈哈哈哈....

现在, 他也有女朋友啦...
就祝他快快乐乐, 开开心心咯!~!~!~
呵呵...

这些就是缘...
也就是有缘无份.....
就区区隔几个星期, 事情就变了那么多啊~~~
呵呵..蛮好笑的...

呵呵呵呵呵.....~~~
谁都不能怪..因为那个是你的命运..
:)

-善媚-

The Feelings...

Recently.. i hard to get into sleep..
SLEEP.. actually is that easy..
close ur eyes, rest ur mind.. then sleep...
its so easy, but i cant do it..
evrytime i sleep, i think so many things.. i dono why..
why i cant like before, straight away get sleep when i on the bed..

Aii, i really duwan continue like this la..
vry suffer !!!!!!!!! vry xin ku !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i feel like wanna cry out loud.. aii.. when i can end all of this..

Why my dad dont know what i feel?
what they felt is what i felt too..
i i i ... >< >< >< >< >< >< >< >< >< ><
act they love me anot?
dono, i cant answer this !!!!!!
because i cant feel it .....
mayb yes? mayb no... =(

I am big enough.. i just wanna make my choice..
i duwan make myself regret..
that my future what i have my power to choose it !!!!!
I HAVE MY CHOICE !!!!!
grr, gek sim..
God, why you treat me like this...

Aii,
i am still myself.. i have nvr change before..
dont say me change..

Dad, did u know?
pc the only true friend for me..
my feeling, my sad happy dissapoint..
only PC know it..
here is the place where i can share and express out evrything..
at home, nobody talk with me..
only watch the 4 walls around me..
T.T
if i talk with u all, sure will have argument..
i dont want..
i tired with all of that.. aii~

-sm-

SPM result..

Ok, lets talk about SPM result ( O-level)
my result damn SUCK !!!!!!!
aii~ i wish those B got A...
kanasai..

My parents surely dissapointed of it..
aii, they aspect for more As..
and they tot i will win my sis...
cz UPSR PMR i most high..

Then, out relation like not that good....
i seldom talk ady..
or maybe i dono how to face them T.T
i realy feel deeply upset and hurt.....

Spm is just a result for scholar wad...
why so serious?? i still can choose to study what ma~
then what i study next is what i wanna be ma !~!~!~!
grrr, vry gek sam they dont understand...

From the moment they knew my result..
they never give some comfort words at all !!!
even my frend got bad result..
her family dont care but worried about her...
how sweet is her, i wish i am her.. T.T

I dono now i gonna study where...
so... i dono
aii~ i have no more energy to do or say anything..
let God decide evrything ba..

-sm-

wo hui lai le ~~~~ i am back !`!~!!~!~

Ok la.. my pc spoiled.. so~ i cant use~ and there is no other pc for me ~
so there's no update ^^

Ok..after Spm~i went for work... as a cashier.. ><
aii, i 1 person work there without friend o...
but i learn something.. INDEPENDENT! !
and how dis world is..
some ppl treat u nicely~ but like to backstab..
you will never know how a person heart is...
if you know, you have to pretend also..
so, it is SUFFER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok la~ i think finished le ba..
suan le~
bybye~

-sm-