The Feelings...

Recently.. i hard to get into sleep..
SLEEP.. actually is that easy..
close ur eyes, rest ur mind.. then sleep...
its so easy, but i cant do it..
evrytime i sleep, i think so many things.. i dono why..
why i cant like before, straight away get sleep when i on the bed..

Aii, i really duwan continue like this la..
vry suffer !!!!!!!!! vry xin ku !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i feel like wanna cry out loud.. aii.. when i can end all of this..

Why my dad dont know what i feel?
what they felt is what i felt too..
i i i ... >< >< >< >< >< >< >< >< >< ><
act they love me anot?
dono, i cant answer this !!!!!!
because i cant feel it .....
mayb yes? mayb no... =(

I am big enough.. i just wanna make my choice..
i duwan make myself regret..
that my future what i have my power to choose it !!!!!
I HAVE MY CHOICE !!!!!
grr, gek sim..
God, why you treat me like this...

Aii,
i am still myself.. i have nvr change before..
dont say me change..

Dad, did u know?
pc the only true friend for me..
my feeling, my sad happy dissapoint..
only PC know it..
here is the place where i can share and express out evrything..
at home, nobody talk with me..
only watch the 4 walls around me..
T.T
if i talk with u all, sure will have argument..
i dont want..
i tired with all of that.. aii~

-sm-