Emotiinally abused

Have u ever feel to hide inside  one dark deep corner that Nobody could ever notice you. There is just your sorrow, tears and yourself. In the same time u hope that someone could really understand u and attentive, considerate enough to notice u inside there.
That person would be a coma for u. U can rely, depend, wish and hope on he/she. Rest for some times and start the journey again. Unfortunately I have never met anyone like this, not even friends. Maybe I used to, but no more.... People changed, people left :)
Always Always people are not satisfied with what they had. But try to Chill and think, what if u never have anything right now? In that moment, will you hope for it, desperately and eagerly wish for. And when you got? U will think it's just isn't perfect but a point of achievement, easy to get and forget it forever. No matter on materials or human, we just don't satisfied and we want more and more, the wanted are infinity.
So how if you actually care for someone. People might think that is over, too much, non of your business. Human right, have never thought for good. Some people are easy to be forgive, some people are dying to ask for forgiveness. Actually everyone are forgiven, is just that when u reached the point of disappointment and awake, u will limit yourself to that person. U woudlnt even want to step nearer, u feel fed up, u feel disgust, u even will suspect every statements she/he gave. Because there is no trust anymore, facing that person is like u got no feelings anymore, Nothing, just an empty heart. Why not just being urself, normal conversation, hi bye how r u, that it. 把自己繞在裏頭只會發覺人家更多的不是，就算要假裝看不見，還是要接收。明明已經知道理由，就不必逞強. Anyway, I don't entertain people, who seek for fun for boredom, free time and so on.
有些事情只能說給懂的人聽。往往我們會覺得自己有聽得懂的人，但是其實回回頭，沒有的。在某些情況下，最心痛的就是，自己很想說，連那個人也聽不懂。不然就是不想說，希望他會明白....可惜我還沒遇見，也許是我自己太保護自我了。常常會覺得，你找人會煩到人，這是你這門事啊，幹嘛要去牽連別人....我太過顧慮，考慮了。有時候，當你說了，別人卻只給到一半反應，你卻會覺得不是，倒不如不說不是更好嗎？自己靜靜，哭也好，睡也好，就這樣忘去！:) 有苦說不出是辛苦，但總好過說出了還要面對那些敷衍和不理解。
有時候做人真的很難。說話要小心，做事要小心。身邊的人千變萬化，玩得起，突然可以很小氣，本就小氣以為熟了就算不會計較，卻也不過如此。你說別人時候，也沒有想過他也是小氣嗎？自己要說，也就要玩得起！說了也不會多痛，一分鐘後就不會再是話題了，不是嗎？哈哈，不是每個道理我們都會領悟和理解.....
我不會討厭我是這樣的情況長大，至少我比別人看得多，我比別人懂得多，我會獨立，我會接受，我會哭後就忘記，我懂這個世上有些東西應該如何處理，有些人應該怎樣對待。我更會想要奮鬥，我會賺錢，雖然我們家不比別人有錢，自己要玩，要買丟得靠自己。新年錢也不比別人多，一直努力的存。至少這樣，我買的開心，玩得開心，因為都是我自己的！我不想去羨慕，因為希望自己有天也能像別人。光羨慕又如何？是你的命，早就發生了。出世的命不能選，爸爸媽媽也不能選，但是以後的路就是自己選！光去羨慕別人，妒忌別人，只會導致自己走歪路，不服氣，不滿足 :):)